Elliot: History of the Name

Darkness in Disguise with CC… where did this name come from? The phrase “Darkness in Disguise” came to light, while I was in a dark place in 2012. I was mourning the death of one of my best friends to suicide. I was angry, I was alone & I was unable to handle the process of grief. I had so much internal turmoil going on from my abusive home that adding this new layer of non-processing grief felt like I was being suffocated. During this time, I was internally creating a SAFE-haven, my future & the healer I always knew I would become.

Elliot,

2012. I remember the day I got that call, like it was yesterday. Before I answered the phone call – I knew. I hit the answer button and dropped to the floor. I screamed, I cried, I cussed, I was the embodiment of pain & anger. WHY? HOW? But I knew. I knew this day would one day become the time of living in a world without you. No more hugs, no more laughs & no more adventures. Selfishly I cried out for you, even though I knew you were in the better place. You were safe and able to watch over the people that loved you with their whole person.

Your Celebration of Life was beautiful and as I looked out to crowd of people celebrating you, I knew I needed to do something. The crowd was a mixture of laughs, cries, shouts and unbearable pain. I felt the need to create a safe place for all the people that were mourning your bright life and the people mourning their personal lives. Darkness in Disguise was born at Galena High School in 2012 to be a safe haven. I had so many ideas, ambitions & dreams of what I wanted to do with the club. All of the dreams faded, because I was in such homelife trauma. I was not in a place to be the safe haven, even though I wanted so badly to be IT. To be IT for you, for all the people in my life and for all the people not in my life.

July 16th, 2024. Happy Re-Birth Darkness in Disguise. May you touch the lives of many. May you bring healing energetically, spiritually, emotionally, sexually and physically. May you break the generational trauma. May you cut the cords of current, future & past lives. May you heal the burdens from grief and bring awareness to the world. May you be the light in the dark.

All my light,

CC

PS. Elliot, I love you & I miss you & I hope I make you proud. Oh, and thank you for bringing Aubrey back into my life.